Why does my first love hurt me so much????!!!!?

Some women are like that...they cleary don't know what they want...maybe she thought you were too good to be true...and maybe she wanted to mess with other guys to see how she feels and if it didn't feel right then come back to you...but even if she does comeback to you or she doesn't then that was her loss...if she doesn't show that she cares anymore or comeback to you then quite honestly she never cared...and if that's the case man you just gotta move on to someone who will treat you wayyyy better...you can't stay your whole life deppressed or hurt gotta keep it moving...plenty of women out there